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When are men beautiful???

It's been such a long time since I've written anything good. Something from the heart ... something with some feeling behind it. Since Marley's passing I haven't really had much to write in that aspect. Until now ...

My baby sister Lauren announced she was pregnant last year. No lie ... I was disappointed but I was going to stand by her. That is what sisters do. I even offered to assist her by taking my future niece someday. I was sad and yet happy when she and her boyfriend said they were going to do what they thought was best and take their baby.

Fast forward to Friday January 16th. I go to my moms house to celebrate my brother-in-laws birthday. During the showing of "Transformers" (can you believe my mother has never seen it!!!!!), my sister calls for us in the bathroom. She thinks her water broke. OMG. It was actually a leak... but we DIDN'T know!!! I stayed the night.

Next morning mom took her walking at Wal-Mart. I went home. Took care of some work. Met them at the hospital.

Move forward 10 hours. whew ... Most of the day was her pacing and she really didn't have contractions. The dr. finally came in and decided to break her water. HOLY HELL!!! She felt the pain now!!! Some evil dark part of me was feeling a little better now that she was having some LITTLE bit of discomfort.

So when it was finally time for her to push ... I had one leg ... Marie had another leg ... my mom and Eric's mom were near the end of the bed. My dad was helping Lauren with her breathing. It was becoming intense and very emotional. I could feel the tears in my eyes and my throat would start to get a lump every time I caught a glimpse of my niece.

Her contractions began to get worse and she couldn't focus. She couldn't concentrate. She was so close and yet so tired. I could see that she was going to give up!

I looked up at the head of the bed and almost stopped breathing. What I saw next was the most beautiful thing that I had seen in years. The boy that I had been looking down upon since my sister announced her pregnancy ... the boy covered in tattoos ... the boy with the piercings ... the boy who I wasn't sure was going to be there ... turned into a man right before my eyes ... in my eyes.

I watched as his lip began to quiver. His never took his eyes off of her face. He never let go of her hand. He combed her hair out of her face. I watched as his eyes filled with such pain ... I could see that he wanted to take away her pain. I could see that he loved her. I could see that he was going to be there.

Then ... like a tall giant leaning down to gently place the maiden in his prized secret meadow in the clouds ... he leaned down to face her. My heart stopped and I held my breath as I waited to hear what he would say. I strained and tried to ignore all of the other sounds in the room. I only saw his lips move ... but barley. He whispered something to her. Then he put his head as close to hers as possible ... and she calmed down. Her breathing became regular and she became focused. She knew that she was there to do a job and she was ready! She opened her eyes and leaned forward and started to push!!!

At that moment ... my views of my future brother-in-law changed. I could barley contain myself. I cried. I cried because I saw a boy turn into a man right before my eyes. After the excitement of Kylea calmed a bit ... I walked up to him and hugged him. Not a hug of "hey, nice to see you." ... but a REAL brotherly hug.

Eric ... I am happy and proud to call you family. I love you.

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